~Two weeks Old~

Sadie is now 2 weeks old and getting so big. She's doing really good. Still doesn't latch on but I pump and also supplement with formula. She sleep good at night only waking up 2 times a night. Last night I made her sleep in her own crib and she did great. I was letting her sleep with me and she was loving that. I'm so busy during the day with her that the day goes by fast. She's so alert and looks around. She even moves her head around like crazy. She loves her daddy like crazy. He takes her and she a perfect angel. Austin also enjoys her and likes to feed her whenever he can. He calls her his little Tatar Tot. She is such a blessing to us all.

~St. Patrick's Day~

Happy St. Patrick's day everyone. I hope you all have your green on. So far Sadie is the only one wearing it today. This is also the 5 year anniversary of my Grandma Helen's passing. I can't even begin to tell you how much we miss her. Austin misses her like crazy and doesn't even like to celebrate this day at all. Her and Austin were very close and when she passed it broke his heart. Til this day I can't really talk about her in front of Austin because he just breaks down. I know that she is looking down on us each and everyday and is very pound of everything we have done in our lives. She was by far the best grandma ever that was always there for us. We will forever miss her and someday we will see her again. We just want her to know we love and miss her like crazy!!

~Sleep? What's That~

Sleep around this house for James and I has been very little. I think we both are so off track and are having a hard time getting back on. Monday night Sadie didn't want to sleep while we were still in the hospital so I didn't get any either which was hard because I had been up since Sunday morning. Tuesday night she just wanted to cry all night long. Wed night she slept ok but by this point I was already behind on many hours of sleep. Thurs night was again a bad night with little sleep. Again with Friday.I think the problem is that we are having a hard time getting her to latch on to the breast so it's been very frustrating for both her and me. We had to go to using formula and me pumping breast milk just so she can eat. I almost feel like a failure when it comes to breast feeding. I don't mind pumping just so she gets that good milk. The Dr. told us that we need to try to get her days and nights right. So starting tomorrow we are going try to keep her awake as much as we can. She also loves sleeping in our bed with us so we are going to try and get her to stay in her crib more. It's all a work in progress and will take time which we know. I will say the lack of sleep and everything else that's been crazy in our life the last week is 110% worth it and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. We love her like crazy and will take any challenge that comes our way. James was a wonderful husband and let me sleep in big time today. He took great care of Sadie while I caught up on some much needed rest. I'm also going to start napping when she does that way I'm not to tired.

~She's Here~

We checked into the hospital Sunday evening around 4:30pm. I was hoping it would a snap and she would be here. They checked me when I got there and I was still 1cm. Well the Dr. came in and checked me and I was 2cm and he broke my water. At about 5:30pm he started me on the meds. I wasn't really having contractions until later. I was about to talk to friends and laugh at jokes until about 1am. That's when they got really bad and I wasn't even really dilating. I think I was at 3cm then. What made it even worse is that I had heartburn on top of that. That's when I could no longer laugh or joke through them. At around 4am she asked me if I wanted drugs and I said yes. I knew when I went in that I was getting the Epidural but I could have some pains meds before if I wanted them. Well we skipped the pain meds and went straight for the Epidural. I got that about 5am. This whole time I didn't sleep at all. I felt great after that. The heartburn did get really bad and I got sick. A huge thanks to Keri and Adeline for cleaning me up and holding my barf bag. James was a mess and couldn't help me with that one. After I got sick I felt better. By the time the nurse checked me at 6am I was already 9 1/2cm. Labor and delivery got really busy around that time and she laughed and told me to hold on and don't push. I said don't worry this little girl will wait...she wanted this long. I started pushing and after 4 pushes Sadie came into the world. It was the best feeling in the world. She weighed 8lbs 14oz and is 20 inches long. James cut the cord even though he hate the site of blood and needles..lol. James has been a wonderful husband helped me the past few days..I'm very thankful for him. I'm trying to breast feed her but we are having issue with her latching on which is making it hard on me. I have had about 4 hours sleep since Sunday morning. So if this makes no sense please forgive me..lol. I just wanna say a huge thanks to my husband James for being the best husband ever. Thanks to Brook and Jaime for making me laugh til Keri got there. And a big thanks to Keri and Adeline for staying all night and helping me bring Sadie into the world. Thanks to everyone for all the well wishes. I can't wait to show her off. Again if this makes no sense I'm sorry...lol.

~It's Hospital Time~

In less then an hour we will be leaving to go to the hospital. I'm so excited and nervous all in one. We soon will be holding our long awaited little girl in our arms. Even better we will have the best Dr. delivering her.What more can we ask for. Soon Austin will be a bog brother, James will be a new daddy and I will be a 2 time mom. We have been so blessed and we can't thank God enough for everything he has given us. Next time I post it will be all about Sadie.

~Sadie Update~

I'm still only 1 cm dilated and my due date is March 8th. He doesn't want me to go over that so if she doesn't come by Sunday he's going to induce me. At least I know by next Monday she will be here. It's also kinda scary to be induced because I have never had to do that before. I just hope and pray that everything goes well and she is healthy. It feels so strange that sometime in the next week I'm going to be a mom again and James is going to be first time dad. I'm so excited. Please pray for us that everything goes well.